I guess it's been awhile...

since I've post anything on here.

I've been pretty busy with school and work and all. So i think my apartment is the apartment from HELL. First we found roaches, which are still not entirely gone, and 2 days ago they came out to treat for them again, and now we have bed bugs. This is just getting a little ridiculous and I'm left constanting asking myself "why did i move out?!" and I've been thinking about that, and how I will probably be left to move back into my parents house after this year. I'm going to have no luck in finding a roommate so I'm not going to have too much choice in moving back home.
Today, I was talking with my dad and get is getting ready to re paint my room and move all my mom's junk into it. Wonder how I might break it to them that I'll pretty much have to move back in after this year.

Oh boy...

Life...Sigh

Wow, where to begin.

I moved out, there's a start. I got a kitten. Learned some life lessons. And realized I have no idea where my life is going, and I dont care anymore.

Got a B+ in Computer problem solving for business, sucks, I wanted an A.

Sprayed too much bug stuff in the apartment this afternoon, and its giving me a headache.

The Strangest Most Fucked Up Week Probably Ever.

Wow.



Where to begin...everyone thing is so fucked up. And I don't care because I'm so done with it all. People need to fucking chill out and not be so up tight. I'm happy, and I dont care about everyone and the drama they are all starting over it.



So I had my heart smashed into the ground, because I liked seeing my boyfriend more than he liked seeing me. But whatever, learn from your past and move on, I'm not one to mope over that kind of stuff. I'm young, I knew it would end, so I moved on and accepted it, sorry that I didnt pout about it as long as everyone wanted me to.



My life has changed so much in the past week, and I think I've experianced every possible emotion.





But I'm in a good place right now, and that's all that matters to me right now.







Oh, and side note. This time next week I will be all moved into my new apartment. Yay!

Lost...

...thats probably the best word to describe how I feel right now. I just feel like I'm lost and wondering around in the dark, which no where to go.

I cant even look at myself in the mirror.

I hate everything my life is right now.

The world is no longer a beautiful place...it seems that only the ugliness of the world is visible.



Hard to belive that less than 10 days ago, I was the happiest person ever. Wrapping up my trip to Chicago with a guy I really cared about and had so much fun and enjoyed every minute of it, even the car ride back....

...now my life has spiral out of control.



I hate this world...
I hate this place so much,
so many terrible memories that the good ones can even begin to cover up the bad.


I think at least my cat understands me...she's been super cuddly today and that helps just a little.

Too good to be true...

I knew I had been too happy recently, it was just too good to be true.

Well, I dont even know anymore, and I dont think I care, but obviously the continuous urge to cry must mean that I do care.

Fuck people....I just want to be left alone. Fuck the world they can all go to hell...I dont want to deal with people anymore.

And boys are fucking stupid...I'm done getting involved with them....

I'm perfectly content being the crazy cat lady.



You can all just go to hell, and when I die you wont even have to deal with me, I'll just get my hundrends of cats to eat my dead, decaying, rotting body so no one will have to bother themselves with me.


And the slightly sadning part about this whole post is.... I really do wish the world would just fuck off and leave me the hell alone.

Time to Update This Thing....

I guess its been a while since I've posted, and boy have things changed. I've been working at the bank alot, I'm leaving Thursday for Chicago for Lollapalooza and I'm so excited!!! I finally found a place to live, and a roommate, and you know me and my love to shop, I'm so excited to furnish an apartment. My grandma has gone from hating me, to making a special trip down in a few weeks to just see me and go shopping.

I'm really happy.

AND...I'm listening to the thunderstorm now and its so nice.

Keeping Busy.

So this weekend was pretty awesome.
Friday:
Chipotle.
Party Source. (which I had never been to before).
Long nap. (I'm pretty sure it was a good 3 hours).
Five Guys.
Party.
Repo! The Genetic Opera.

Also, that night, I found out that in the apartment building I really wanted to live in, there were 2 registered sexual offenders. So needless to say I'm still apartment searching. This Sunday I'll be going to check out another apartment. Hopefully it's promising.

Saturday:
Work. (Aaron made me Mac n Cheese and brought it to me on my lunch break (: tehehe).
Party.
Taco Bell.
Party.
Sleep.

Sunday:
Kings Island. (Rollercoasters!!! and FREE drinks).
LaRosas Pizza.
Watched a Wedding Cake Show. (There was this AWESOME retro wedding cake)
Sleep.

Today:
Working at the bank for the first time. (Up until now it's just been classroom training).

Now, I think it is time to go get some food.

Changes...

It feels like I have turned the page to a new chapter.

It's been a while since I posted and so many things have changed. I got a new job...at 5/3. Persistance pays. I start there next monday, I'm super excited. And I think I'm finally going to be moving out. Even though I can't really afford to, I have to get out of this house. So I'm going tomorrow morning to see one of the apartments and then I'm seeing another on Sunday. I just cannot handle living here anymore. Everyday just builds up more and more tensions.

I dont know what I'm going to do...stop eatting maybe? Ugh. I'm so tired, the past two nights at work have run an extra half hour late, and staying till 12 instead of 1130, when its that late it feels like so much more of a difference.

I'm going to sleep.

Just got home from work...

And I'm getting ready to watch an episode of Greek.

Good news... my phone interview last Thursday with 5/3 went well... I now have a one on one interview Friday afternoon. I'm excited...this could be a great opportunity for me.




I'm a little hesitant to blog about this because I dont want it to come off all cheesy, obsessive, clingy, etc. But I'm really happy about dating someone who really does treat me right, and makes me smile and laugh, and I'm really happy with him. He's really fun, and its always entertaining, and I love spending time with him. Plus, we have a very similar sense of humor.

(Well I guess thats enough of that right?)

Anyways, tomorrow should be awesome, studying in the morning (I have my sociology and financial accounting exams on Wednesday), then tomorrow afternoon going and getting the Sims 3 with Eddie, and then tomorrow night Aaron is making me dinner (how sweet, see what I mean)...*sigh* off to watch an episode of Greek now, then bed.

:)

First All Nighter...

Technically I just pulled my first all nighter...I mean I kinda have before with catching trains and stuff, and just sleeping in so late that you end up staying up all night but this is my first real...I have been up for over 24 hours kinda thing...

Well this world lit paper is a bitch...I'm in a computer lab on campus waiting for Aaron to get back with a pen so I can do my fourth and final edit on this paper.

S'mores for lunch.

Things aren't perfect, but I'm okay with that. Nothing is perfect right?

Basically obsessed with the show GREEK!!! I missed all of last season so I've been catching up on it lately. LOVE IT!

Had 8 s'mores for lunch...such a fat ass.

Well...now I'm off to call about a job opp. at fifth third...CROSS YOUR FINGERS!

Oh yes...and I had 36 hours this week at Starbucks...AMAZING! But then back to partically nothing next week..which sucks...So hopefully I'll get a jopb at a bank.

I NEED CHANGE!

Everything is F-u_C-k-E_D u-P!!!

I just cant deal with all of this right now. I need everything to change and hopefully for the better. I feel like everything is all wrong. I HATE my job, and I cant find another one. And I preferably need one that pays more than what I make now. Actually I wouldnt mind making the same, but I actually need the hours...sorry Starbucks 17 hours a week isnt quite enough...OBVIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK!

I wanted to transfer stores cuz I thought I would get more hours, but then my manager doesnt want to fuck herself over when Liz leaves for California in July...so good job, now you've fucked yourself over even more cuz I'll leave in a fucking heartbeat...I HATE that place...I fucking resent starbucks....I can never look at a coffee cup from that hell hole the same way.

Moving on...
I need to move the fuck out of this house. I cannot stand it, its soooo upsetting living here. I dont even know what to do. I cannot live here, and I cant even explain how I feel. Everything they do drives me FUCKING INSANE! EVERYTHING!!!!!!! I just cant do this anymore, and I have no way of changing my siuation. I cant afford to move out and its that simple...Because of starbucks fucking me over, my last paycheck was $245.13 that combinded with my last paycheck of $230.87 makes a wopping an even $476.00. And it's impossible to find anything less than $350 a month plus utilities. And eating is usually nice....I just dont know how I can manage to do it dispite how badly I want it.


I HATE THIS....
Everything is going to hell.

The wonders of comfort food...

A big bowl of mac n cheese and a veggie hot dog and...


BAM!

All of a sudden everything feels fine again...
i'm pretty sure I aced my B-Law exam...and my sociology exam today...
2 exams in one day rough...
I skipped financial accounting to study B-Law which I feel was a wise choice in two aspects....
SUNLIGHT (i studied for B-Law outside), and obviously I got a good 2 hour study session in.

Well, I think I'm going to head to starbucks now...
and then I'm babysitting later tonight...which I havent done in a while...
I feel very out of practice in dealing with kids, because all i ever do at work is yell at them to clean up their mess and get out...but mainly thats teenagers...*rolls eyes*

What a lovely day...
oh yes and I think I'm giving blood on friday.

Fuck it all...

What a shitty day.
I woke up late...got nothing done...wasted my entire day...
It amazing how everything just seemed to go from awesome to shit in only a day...
It just seemed like everything was wrong today...I should never have gotten out of bed today. What a horrible idea that was.
I've just been restless all day...
Just now realized all I've had all day was some
fruit and yogurt,
a cup of coffee,
2 glasses of ice tea,
and some chocolate teddy grams.

I cant focus on anything...
I keep crying...
I feel worthless...but then again look at my fucking day...I am worthless...
I cant even fall asleep...all i want to do is go to sleep and i cant even fucking do that right.

On the Up and Up

Things have been going great. Where to begin, my schedule this quarter is so nice and relaxing. I bought a motorcycle on friday. Yay! Then friday night we went to Louisville for a FREE O.A.R. concert. The drive really didn't seem that long, and all the people in their little derby outfits looked so cute, I'm so jealous. Well I started this blog yesterday and now I'm finally going to finish it. Life has just been great lately, everything is looking so great. :D

Thursday...I had people over for dinner, and it really wasnt that bad, it was kinda fun...Then I kinda had to kick everyone out so I could go check this motorcycle out...

Friday...Bought the motorcycle...got title and plates...went to louisville to see OAR...hung out on campus for a bit, then home to sleep...

Saturday...went to visit my grandma, and found out she is paying for the next year of college tuition...AMAZING!...then came home, changed the oil and oil filter on the motorcycle and rode it till it got dark...then down to campus and hung out with people...stayed over night there (my parents have gotten really lax about that lately)...

Sunday...slept in the latest I have in a VERY VERY long time...work up to my boyfriend having printed off an entire binder-full of info on my motorcycle...went and got lunch(late breakfast)...then to my house to ride the motorcycle...then went to the street art fair... then got late lunch/dinner with people...then rode the motorcycle some more...then meet with "mommy kate" then rode the motorcycle some more and got (late dinner)/snack..cheese pizza...then it got dark and back to my house and then it was DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES time..intense!!!

....BEST WEEKEND EVER!!!

I am been in such a great mood for so long...Everything in my life is going great...I really dont want this feeling to go away.

And the cherry on top is...as "mommy kate" put it...I "finally have someone worthy of my awesome-ness"...

:D

Oh yes. And for today... I took the motorcycle out for a couple hours and got coffee, and just rode around for a while...then I'm meeting Lizz for coffee this afternoon, and then after Aaron gets off work we're going out to the motorcycle shop to get some parts for my bike and getting him a helmet that actually fits him...and then dinner and playing gameboy somewhere in there.

Good days...

Somedays, everything just feels good. Maybe I just havent done anything to make my day seem bad yet, but it just feels like everything is in a good place right now. I like it alot. And I feel like going to the library to pick up some cds.

So, goodbye.

Lollapalooza Line Up Released Today!!!

Oh my goodness... I just saw the line up for lollapalooza this year, and its good. There are some really good bands that are going to be there...once again Perry Ferrel, you have yet to disappoint me with your choice in music. I'm so super excited...and it's going to be Aaron's first lollapalooza!!! eck....such a great line up!
Theivery Corporation, The Killers, Beastie Boys, Jane's Addiction, The Decemberists, Of Montreal, Artic Monkeys, Silversun Pickups, Kaiser Chiefs, Peter Bjorn and John (YAY! since I'm missing their show on Friday because of work)....
OH MY GOSH! that is just to name a handful of the Lolla awesomeness...
Some bands will be a second time, and some will be a first, but once again...such a great line up.

Everything is in super speed

Everything seems to be moving in super speed. It seems a little crazy. I run in a marathon in 12 days and I'm not ready at all. That totally snuck up on me. I looks like I'll just be doing a half marathon and doing a horrible time on it. Oh well.

Anyways moving on to some better news. This morning when I was being unfocused and doing my world lit posting, I stumbled onto craigslist where I found a 2003 Kawasaki Ninja 250. I have my fingers crossed, but I'm a little nervous since the post has been up there since March30-31, that maybe it has already been sold, and the post was never taken down. Any who... I replied to the ad, saying I was interesting and asking if we could set up some time to come by and check it out. I really really really hope today is my lucky day.

I recall there be a few more things I wanted to say... but alas they slip my mind.

I can't believe its almost May...
Oh yes, I remember one of the things but it seems pointless to type it all out, since it's just me contemplating my options in my head, but here it goes anyways.
As soon as I get the chance to move out, having 2 potential roommates and wanting to get a house together, in the discussion of it, it has almost talked me out of seeing the point in moving out.
I mean dont get me wrong I would love love love to move out, but in weighing it fully, with the financial burden of moving out it seems not worth the cost.
Having a discussion about how none of us will ever really be there...like i'll be with ___ most of the time, you'll be with ___ most of the time, and she'll be with ___ most of the time, it wont ever be all of us here at the same time. So then why do we need 4 bedrooms, a basement, and all this space if not more than 1 person is home at a time. Also, in getting a house then I'll have to buy furinture which is expense and I cant afford, and I still have my crappy Starbucks job, and am having no luck with finding an opening at a bank (which I am going to continue and broaden my search tomorrow). Yeah, if I moved out, I would barely be able to cover rent from month to month with my current job. So unless I get some stellar paying job, I really think moving out is completely out of the question.

Also I was thinking...I really want a motorcycle, and I really want to travel a lot, since I am the most un-traveled person ever, I would really like to go some place that I've never been before, and if I weren't blowing my entire paycheck on rent each month, that would be possible.

I honestly want to know how other people do it...live on their own, afford the things they do, go to and pay for school. It blows my mind... but then again I don't want to live the rest of my life in debt, and I didnt grow up as a spoiled rich kid, so I guess I'll just have to continue the way I have been.

What a long day...classes, home for a little bit, then tutoring, then work till 11:30.
UGH... I will definately not miss the HORRIBLE hours I work at Starbucks when I leave.

Let me think...

Let me think...
What to talk about exactly...
Ohhh yes. My rant about Easter bullshit. So today is Easter, that's nice, Jesus was a zombie yada yada yada... but someone please tell me why everything has to fucking shut down for the entire day. I had to work, why couldnt all of them. Please dont tell me that for one day (actually two, let's inlcude Christmas here too) the world actually turns into this god loving place where everyone supposidly doesnt work and worships a zombie Jesus and whatever. That is a bunch of bullshit. I had an awesome Sunday shift (8am-3pm) which RARELY happens, and I wanted to go out and get somethings accomplished...like buy a new alarm clock...but ohhh nooooo....not even target was open.

HUFF.

Okay time for some random thoughts...
>Yay for Lollapalooza. I have tickets, a hotel, and an AMAZING guy to go with me :)
>I get to go out of town this weekend...that makes me happy.
>My parents have all of a sudden begun to C-H-I-L-L the fuck out.
>Trying to decide how many classes I would like to take/can afford to take this summer.
>Crossing my fingers for a job as a bank teller. I've applied for quite a few positions.
>I hate people that create drama/problems when there is nothing there. (I'm sure I am guilty of this at times.)
>I HATE doctors...and I should probably go to get checked up for some stuff, but I'm absolutely terrified of doctors.
>I really need to do some spring cleaning, but it's really hard to lock myself in a room for atleast a good solid 48 hrs to get this shit all cleaned up. What's the point of having a clean room, all i do is sleep and change clothes here.
>I need bookshelves.

That's probably it for now I guess.

Hmmm....

Headache

I have a really bad headache,
and everything just feels like its falling apart.

And I just feel really depressed right now.

Vivid Dreams

I had the most vivid dream last night...
I had a dream that my dad died...
and so did my grandma.
It was really strange.

Well yesterday my dad called me and told me I need to make it to a "meeting" at 8pm today. Well I dont feel like going to talk to them, because its completely a mute point. It will just be all of our usual fights which they've fully expressed themselves on so it would just be a waste of time. So I texted my dad just now and told him that and he said sorry to hear that.

Oh apparently i'm "really unhappy." Um damn straight!


How is my life such a rollercoaster. Everything is AMAZING and then it just flies off the tracks and crashes.

Email arguements

What a gloomy, cold, rainy, nasty Monday.
At least the weekend was pretty amazing.
Well I dont really know what else to say about this but I really hate fighting/tension/agruements/etc. Today my mom and I went back and forth about my dad going to lollapalooza with me. Well apparently (I'm not sure when) I said that I didnt want him to go with me after I was 18. Without taking my plans or feelings into consideration he said he would not go with me this year. So now that I've made other plans he changed his mind and has asked me if he could go with me and I keep telling him NO! Well he had my mom send me some sob email about bonding time and other bullshit like that seeing if I would reconsider going with him and I said NOPE!

I hate it when people use things and hang it over your head.
So I was allowed to stay out for the first time this weekend (for one night). This is the first time this has happened in 4 years. Now it is being used against me like, "see we let you stay out for the night." But they even told me it was a one time thing and it wont be happening again. If they really wanted to use that shit against me just let me do what I fcking want and stay out of my life because I hate you both.

I've always said I hate my parents and people just say "ohhh thats not true you'd be so sad if something happened to them." But honestly, as horrible as it is, if you only knew the things I've gone through, I would feel no remorse if something happened to them. I just hope they compensate me well in their wills, because this is complete bullshit if I put up with this shit and get shafted in their wills.



I think this post is very fitting of the nasty weather today.

So much going on

Where to begin.
Okay so family vacation. Yikes! Bad idea. I cannot stand my family and that will be my last family vacation. And it made me realize once again I absolutely HATE living with them. And once again we got into another right about how apparently its this huge worry about whether I'm going to get through school... hmm I made all A's this quarter, geez whiz I'd be pretty worried too.
WHAT THE FUCK!?
I think my only motivation to do well in school is to do well enough to get the FUCK OUTTA HERE! I hate my parents, and that kind of makes me sad. Hearing other people tell me that they wish I was their daughter really sucks. My parents have never been happy with me, and its like why couldn't I have been someone else's daughter. At least they would appreciate me.
The way I'm talked to by them you would think I was some knocked-up-crack-head-meth-lab-running-prostitute. I'm so glad I'm nothing more than some huge disappointment to them.

Yeah... I'm really unhappy with that whole situation. Which that I guess transitions into my next thing. The only reason I'm living with them is my financial situation. I can't afford to move out.

I don't make shit working at Starbucks, and now they are fucking people over with hours, for the past month I haven't even averaged 20 hrs a week. I need to get another job. I would really like to get a job as a bank teller. But as much as I'm hating Starbucks right now, I would really miss the security of knowing what to expect there. I guess I'm for once in my life afraid of some change. But I know it's needed. And who knows maybe if I get a job at a bank I might make more than Starbucks and maybe maybe maybe if KARMA doesnt hate my guts I might be able to move out before I'm out of college.

Then I'd actually get to grow up. That would be a change I would welcome with open arms. I feel like I'm never going to get to grow up from being this 14 yr old girl whos parents watch her every move. I absolutely hate it.

Maybe I should just become the knocked-up-crack-head-meth-lab-running-prostitute they think I am. They've always been so disappointed in me, maybe I should just confirm it for them.

but this just made me kinda smile...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtX8nswnUKU

well yeah vacation...was stressful to say the least.
But I canoed! :) that made me happy.

Hmm... what else is on my mind.
School= classes 3 days a weeks, me likey...
Work= so much drama...but what do you expect in a store full of women
Home= miserable...but that's been my entire life so nothing new there...
Weather= its amazing
Friendships= perfectly content
Love life = for once...i actually have absolutely NO complains in this area. (thank you)

I really like the song "Story of a girl" ...
Wow PERFECT song for my mood right now... ABSOLUTELY perfect!

Well this blog thing did its purpose...
I feel much better now.
*sigh*
:)

Almost forgot.

I want to go somewhere...
anywhere.

Well I guess that will come true in a couple of days when I leave for South Carolina, but I kind of just want to go somewhere and just be stress free for a few days.

That would be nice.

Friends...

I'm such a loser...
I need new friends, or just friends in general.
I am never making the mistake of losing my friends over a guy again...
and that was what... 3-4 yrs ago?
WOW...and I still really haven't made much progress in regaining friendships...
I must really suck.

Now I feel really low.
I have no friends, and my dad doesnt even enjoy spening time with me.

I'm such a winner.

Saying things... just to say them.

Do you ever feel like sometimes people just say things to you to get a rise out of you or just to upset you?
It really upsets me when my parents say things to me and it's like "Seriously!? What the hell would you say that for?!"
I feel like I'm going to be stuck as 14 yr old me as long as I live here, and then they say how responsible I am and "grown up" and mature, and what not and then I get treated like a 14 yr old. Actually my 14 yr old brother is allowed to do more than I am, which is a bit ridiculous.

And then tonight...
Okay a bit of background first off. My dad and I have gone to Lollapalooza together for the past 3 yrs together. Sort of a bonding thing so we dont slit each others throats for the next year. Well I was on the Lolla website last night and saw that Early Bird tickets go on sale March 31st, so tonight I told my dad that, and he was like "Eh, I thought you'd want to go with someone else, not me this year. I wasnt planning on going" And now I'm just really upset and crying...which I know is really stupid and all but it really upset me.

Honestly,
I'm not even allowed to spend the night out, let alone go to Chicago for Lollapalooza for a week. its just dumb and I'm pissed, I dont have anyone to go with anyways, I dont know who the hell he thought I'd get to go with me.

I'M FUCKING PISSED!

Well... all I know is I'm buying myself a ticket on March 31st, and I'll fucking go by myself. Fuck him, fine I'll just go alone I dont give a fuck.

GRRR....

Well before this all happened I was being productive.... Fuck that too.

Time For Change...

Okay so I have an idea...

Why cant we go back to bartering. I think thats a grand ole idea. Money is so over rated. I think we should jsut go back to tarding/bartering. That would be so awesome.

Let's consider that...OKAY!



Well Saturday I ran in my first ever race. I was supposed to do a 10K (6.2 miles), but after the 5K, my throat wanted to kill me. It felt/tasted like it was bleeding, and like I was going to cough blood. Not plesant, so I stoped after the 5K, with a 30'58''. I was pretty proud of myself. But I definately need to step it up if I plan on running at least a half marathon in May.



Then Sunday, I went for a 6.5 mile bike ride around the airport. It was so incredibly nice out, not too hot, not too cold, perfect for a nice long bike ride. I definately want to start doing that at least on a weekly basis.



I love being active, and this is probably why I enjoy spring so much, because you can get out and do whatever and just enjoy some sunshine and fresh air.



Well, I think I have done everything possible today to avoid doing my economics exam questions...which I REALLY should do.

Let's see...I've gone to the coffee shop, the bank, the library, the grocery store, the post office (which apparently I dont know how many stamps to but on the envelope), and worked on my resume.



Hmm...and now I'm writing a blog to avoid working on these economics problems. The thing is, I read them, and they make absolutely no sense. I'm not even sure what the questions are exactly. They are just really vague and unclear. I'll be so glad when this economics class is over, as much as I love economics (yes, I love economics), the teacher is a freakin' moron!



Oh yes, and I also finished watching W.

It was O.K. I think it was slightly over rated, and at times it felt incredibly drawn out. Thank goodness that idoit is finally out of office.



Off to economics problems...JOY!

Thursday Part 2

I should just keep my mouth shut...
When I start going off about things it just makes everything worse.

I want the world to just disappear.
I want to close my eyes
and open them to see nothing.

Too much to do and no motivation to do it.

Right now= super weird fucked up mood.

I feel like crap (physically).
I cannot focus no matter how hard I try.
I feel like I hate what I am right now.
I dont even know if I even know a word to explain my current mood other than completely disoriented.
I think I'm upset with myself, but the weird thing is, I dont even know.

Sigur Ros is amazing. Who doesnt love an Icelandic band. If you actually translate their songs, the lyrics are so poetic, and their voices are mezmorizing. I was talking about them at work the other day. Flipping through everything on my ipod this is the only thing that is helping to put me into a somewhat tranquil mood atleast.

I wish it were warm out...I'd love to just lay on the ground right now and look at the sky and just be...


Well, I think maybe Sigur Ros will help to focus me..I really need to write this research paper, and an economics paper...

I'll be so glad when Saturday comes around:
Run in a 10k, go to a techno thing, and then sleep in as late as I want on Sunday since apparently I never work anymore.

I need a new job.

Wow...

That's about all I can say...wow. If you would have told me this week was going to be like this last Saturday I probably would have said you were crazy. Wow. Don't you just love it when really random things happen and you think it's probably going to be some diaster, and it actually turns out to be totally awesome?! Sunday I basically went skiing with a complete stranger, a mutal friend hooked us up, and over the past week we've found out we have so much in common, and it's crazy. Haha, so much really random weird stuff was happening in my life and wow I met him... totally unexpected and sometimes... I think the things we dont seek and we aren't expecting turn out to be pretty awesome.

:)
Thats really about it...
I should blog more.

One Adventurous Day

It started off in search of a simple black dress skirt, which is suprisingly impossible to find. I found one that was really cute, but none in my size...of course. Rethinking the day it kind of makes me laugh.



I went to get Cherry Icees tonight, and the cups leaked Cherry Icee-ness all over my cup holders, which was a sticky mess. Yet I found it amusing. Then on my way home I got a call and ended up going to Steak n Shake for a Milkshake and Fries...mmm.



Oh and I almost forgot. I got the best gift today, a ugly cute finger puppet thing. He got his name at Steak n Shake. Stevie The Blue Monster.





On a completely different note, I've all of a sudden been obsessed with Brand New, Stars, and Elliott Smith. I've always liked them but those three have just been completely fitting of my mood lately.



I think I'm going to go read now. Oh the interesting life I lead. Haha.


Today = Good Mood

Another Strange Day...

The weather is so weird out. Like last week it was in the 50's and 60's and beautiful and sunny, and this week it's still beautiful and sunny but cold again. I really want it to warm up. I need sunlight.

Well anyways, I feel like the past couple days have just been really strange. Nothing has felt very normal or familiar about them, even through nothing has really gone on. One thing I absolutely cannot stand is when you make plans with someone and then you feel like they are doing everything possible to break those plans. I would so much rather someone just tell me they didnt want to hang out in the first place before saying they will and then making up all kinds of excuses to get out of it. I dont know, I'm sure I'm just being overly dramatic, but it really hurts my feelings.


Maybe if I cleaned my room I might have some sort of organization in my life again.

First Post

Well, I was going through some old myspace blogs and I realized how much I missed blogging as just a way to connect and say what I felt needed to be said, even if no one reads this. So here I am starting a new blog. Anymore I just feel so disconnected from everything and everyone, and I really don't know what to do about that so this is my last resort.

That's all for today.