So much going on

Where to begin.
Okay so family vacation. Yikes! Bad idea. I cannot stand my family and that will be my last family vacation. And it made me realize once again I absolutely HATE living with them. And once again we got into another right about how apparently its this huge worry about whether I'm going to get through school... hmm I made all A's this quarter, geez whiz I'd be pretty worried too.
WHAT THE FUCK!?
I think my only motivation to do well in school is to do well enough to get the FUCK OUTTA HERE! I hate my parents, and that kind of makes me sad. Hearing other people tell me that they wish I was their daughter really sucks. My parents have never been happy with me, and its like why couldn't I have been someone else's daughter. At least they would appreciate me.
The way I'm talked to by them you would think I was some knocked-up-crack-head-meth-lab-running-prostitute. I'm so glad I'm nothing more than some huge disappointment to them.

Yeah... I'm really unhappy with that whole situation. Which that I guess transitions into my next thing. The only reason I'm living with them is my financial situation. I can't afford to move out.

I don't make shit working at Starbucks, and now they are fucking people over with hours, for the past month I haven't even averaged 20 hrs a week. I need to get another job. I would really like to get a job as a bank teller. But as much as I'm hating Starbucks right now, I would really miss the security of knowing what to expect there. I guess I'm for once in my life afraid of some change. But I know it's needed. And who knows maybe if I get a job at a bank I might make more than Starbucks and maybe maybe maybe if KARMA doesnt hate my guts I might be able to move out before I'm out of college.

Then I'd actually get to grow up. That would be a change I would welcome with open arms. I feel like I'm never going to get to grow up from being this 14 yr old girl whos parents watch her every move. I absolutely hate it.

Maybe I should just become the knocked-up-crack-head-meth-lab-running-prostitute they think I am. They've always been so disappointed in me, maybe I should just confirm it for them.

but this just made me kinda smile...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtX8nswnUKU

well yeah vacation...was stressful to say the least.
But I canoed! :) that made me happy.

Hmm... what else is on my mind.
School= classes 3 days a weeks, me likey...
Work= so much drama...but what do you expect in a store full of women
Home= miserable...but that's been my entire life so nothing new there...
Weather= its amazing
Friendships= perfectly content
Love life = for once...i actually have absolutely NO complains in this area. (thank you)

I really like the song "Story of a girl" ...
Wow PERFECT song for my mood right now... ABSOLUTELY perfect!

Well this blog thing did its purpose...
I feel much better now.
*sigh*
:)