S'mores for lunch.

Things aren't perfect, but I'm okay with that. Nothing is perfect right?

Basically obsessed with the show GREEK!!! I missed all of last season so I've been catching up on it lately. LOVE IT!

Had 8 s'mores for lunch...such a fat ass.

Well...now I'm off to call about a job opp. at fifth third...CROSS YOUR FINGERS!

Oh yes...and I had 36 hours this week at Starbucks...AMAZING! But then back to partically nothing next week..which sucks...So hopefully I'll get a jopb at a bank.

I NEED CHANGE!

Everything is F-u_C-k-E_D u-P!!!

I just cant deal with all of this right now. I need everything to change and hopefully for the better. I feel like everything is all wrong. I HATE my job, and I cant find another one. And I preferably need one that pays more than what I make now. Actually I wouldnt mind making the same, but I actually need the hours...sorry Starbucks 17 hours a week isnt quite enough...OBVIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK!

I wanted to transfer stores cuz I thought I would get more hours, but then my manager doesnt want to fuck herself over when Liz leaves for California in July...so good job, now you've fucked yourself over even more cuz I'll leave in a fucking heartbeat...I HATE that place...I fucking resent starbucks....I can never look at a coffee cup from that hell hole the same way.

Moving on...
I need to move the fuck out of this house. I cannot stand it, its soooo upsetting living here. I dont even know what to do. I cannot live here, and I cant even explain how I feel. Everything they do drives me FUCKING INSANE! EVERYTHING!!!!!!! I just cant do this anymore, and I have no way of changing my siuation. I cant afford to move out and its that simple...Because of starbucks fucking me over, my last paycheck was $245.13 that combinded with my last paycheck of $230.87 makes a wopping an even $476.00. And it's impossible to find anything less than $350 a month plus utilities. And eating is usually nice....I just dont know how I can manage to do it dispite how badly I want it.


I HATE THIS....
Everything is going to hell.

The wonders of comfort food...

A big bowl of mac n cheese and a veggie hot dog and...


BAM!

All of a sudden everything feels fine again...
i'm pretty sure I aced my B-Law exam...and my sociology exam today...
2 exams in one day rough...
I skipped financial accounting to study B-Law which I feel was a wise choice in two aspects....
SUNLIGHT (i studied for B-Law outside), and obviously I got a good 2 hour study session in.

Well, I think I'm going to head to starbucks now...
and then I'm babysitting later tonight...which I havent done in a while...
I feel very out of practice in dealing with kids, because all i ever do at work is yell at them to clean up their mess and get out...but mainly thats teenagers...*rolls eyes*

What a lovely day...
oh yes and I think I'm giving blood on friday.

Fuck it all...

What a shitty day.
I woke up late...got nothing done...wasted my entire day...
It amazing how everything just seemed to go from awesome to shit in only a day...
It just seemed like everything was wrong today...I should never have gotten out of bed today. What a horrible idea that was.
I've just been restless all day...
Just now realized all I've had all day was some
fruit and yogurt,
a cup of coffee,
2 glasses of ice tea,
and some chocolate teddy grams.

I cant focus on anything...
I keep crying...
I feel worthless...but then again look at my fucking day...I am worthless...
I cant even fall asleep...all i want to do is go to sleep and i cant even fucking do that right.

On the Up and Up

Things have been going great. Where to begin, my schedule this quarter is so nice and relaxing. I bought a motorcycle on friday. Yay! Then friday night we went to Louisville for a FREE O.A.R. concert. The drive really didn't seem that long, and all the people in their little derby outfits looked so cute, I'm so jealous. Well I started this blog yesterday and now I'm finally going to finish it. Life has just been great lately, everything is looking so great. :D

Thursday...I had people over for dinner, and it really wasnt that bad, it was kinda fun...Then I kinda had to kick everyone out so I could go check this motorcycle out...

Friday...Bought the motorcycle...got title and plates...went to louisville to see OAR...hung out on campus for a bit, then home to sleep...

Saturday...went to visit my grandma, and found out she is paying for the next year of college tuition...AMAZING!...then came home, changed the oil and oil filter on the motorcycle and rode it till it got dark...then down to campus and hung out with people...stayed over night there (my parents have gotten really lax about that lately)...

Sunday...slept in the latest I have in a VERY VERY long time...work up to my boyfriend having printed off an entire binder-full of info on my motorcycle...went and got lunch(late breakfast)...then to my house to ride the motorcycle...then went to the street art fair... then got late lunch/dinner with people...then rode the motorcycle some more...then meet with "mommy kate" then rode the motorcycle some more and got (late dinner)/snack..cheese pizza...then it got dark and back to my house and then it was DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES time..intense!!!

....BEST WEEKEND EVER!!!

I am been in such a great mood for so long...Everything in my life is going great...I really dont want this feeling to go away.

And the cherry on top is...as "mommy kate" put it...I "finally have someone worthy of my awesome-ness"...

:D

Oh yes. And for today... I took the motorcycle out for a couple hours and got coffee, and just rode around for a while...then I'm meeting Lizz for coffee this afternoon, and then after Aaron gets off work we're going out to the motorcycle shop to get some parts for my bike and getting him a helmet that actually fits him...and then dinner and playing gameboy somewhere in there.