The Strangest Most Fucked Up Week Probably Ever.

Wow.



Where to begin...everyone thing is so fucked up. And I don't care because I'm so done with it all. People need to fucking chill out and not be so up tight. I'm happy, and I dont care about everyone and the drama they are all starting over it.



So I had my heart smashed into the ground, because I liked seeing my boyfriend more than he liked seeing me. But whatever, learn from your past and move on, I'm not one to mope over that kind of stuff. I'm young, I knew it would end, so I moved on and accepted it, sorry that I didnt pout about it as long as everyone wanted me to.



My life has changed so much in the past week, and I think I've experianced every possible emotion.





But I'm in a good place right now, and that's all that matters to me right now.







Oh, and side note. This time next week I will be all moved into my new apartment. Yay!

Lost...

...thats probably the best word to describe how I feel right now. I just feel like I'm lost and wondering around in the dark, which no where to go.

I cant even look at myself in the mirror.

I hate everything my life is right now.

The world is no longer a beautiful place...it seems that only the ugliness of the world is visible.



Hard to belive that less than 10 days ago, I was the happiest person ever. Wrapping up my trip to Chicago with a guy I really cared about and had so much fun and enjoyed every minute of it, even the car ride back....

...now my life has spiral out of control.



I hate this world...
I hate this place so much,
so many terrible memories that the good ones can even begin to cover up the bad.


I think at least my cat understands me...she's been super cuddly today and that helps just a little.

Too good to be true...

I knew I had been too happy recently, it was just too good to be true.

Well, I dont even know anymore, and I dont think I care, but obviously the continuous urge to cry must mean that I do care.

Fuck people....I just want to be left alone. Fuck the world they can all go to hell...I dont want to deal with people anymore.

And boys are fucking stupid...I'm done getting involved with them....

I'm perfectly content being the crazy cat lady.



You can all just go to hell, and when I die you wont even have to deal with me, I'll just get my hundrends of cats to eat my dead, decaying, rotting body so no one will have to bother themselves with me.


And the slightly sadning part about this whole post is.... I really do wish the world would just fuck off and leave me the hell alone.

Time to Update This Thing....

I guess its been a while since I've posted, and boy have things changed. I've been working at the bank alot, I'm leaving Thursday for Chicago for Lollapalooza and I'm so excited!!! I finally found a place to live, and a roommate, and you know me and my love to shop, I'm so excited to furnish an apartment. My grandma has gone from hating me, to making a special trip down in a few weeks to just see me and go shopping.

I'm really happy.

AND...I'm listening to the thunderstorm now and its so nice.